That's crazy! So how many years left until you finish the degree?
Well, this is my first year and the bachelor of science is a three year degree but I am doing summer semesters and some extra subjects so perhaps I will be able to finish it by the end of next year then med is 4 years.
I was studying a bachelor of biomedicine but I just changed to a bachelor of science with my major in biomed to save a year. I’ll continue with a bachelor of medicine/surgery after I complete this degree.
To say that you are pretty would be like saying that the ocean is blue ‘cause the ocean is full of all kinds of colours and I see all kinds of things when I look at you. And I want to explore you with my tennis shoes off, standing ankle deep in a tide pool with my khaki pants rolled up. And to say that you are funny would be like saying that the night sky is black ‘cause the night sky is filled with stars and comets and planets that no one has seen yet. And I want to look at you lying down on my front lawn. I’ll try to take you all in at once, but you just go on and on and on.
Today I planned on joining my family for a Father’s Day lunch on my break from work. My dad was too angry. My eldest brother couldn’t be bothered. And my other brother didn’t want to be around my parents. So it ended up just my mum and sister.
Mum was going on about how my brother needs help. How he’s not normal and needs to be “fixed”. It pains me to hear and normally I just sit silently. But then she called him a burden.
In the middle of a restaurant I burst out in tears.
It’s always hard trying to explain aspergers but there I was with tears running down my cheeks trying to. My brother is the most beautiful human I’ve ever known. He is intelligent and understanding and has a brilliant mind. My heart swells when I think of him. He’s just sensitive to the world. It hurts me so much that my family doesn’t understand this. They see these things as problems, weaknesses, things that need to be fixed.
Mum asked why he can’t function “normally” like us so I told her that for three years I’ve struggled with depression and am only just starting to find my feet. She started crying too. This is the first time I’ve ever said anything to my family about this stuff.
Please, please, PLEASE educate yourself. Be aware, spread awareness. Do what you have to.
so every time I shower I notice that my face wash lid isn’t done up properly and I KNOW I do it up properly and the only other person that uses my shower is my dad
So i asked him “Dad are you using my face wash”
And he’s like “What no”
I KNOW ITS YOU DAD LET ME TOUCH YOUR FACE I BET ITS SMOOTH
It’s almost 2am and all I can think about is all the things I’m too scared to tell you. I’m a better person for having known you. Your arms felt like the safest place in the world. Thank you for everything - For kissing my sad eyes, listening to all my sooking, the fights we had, fixing my hair, pretending to care about quantum mechanics and English literature, not waking me when I stole the sheets, waking me when I was running late - Everything. I am someone you are proud of because of everything we shared. All the things you taught me. Forever grateful and in debt to your friendship. I love you.